Update:

Welp, I finished my fourth round of progesterone treatment, so now it's just a waiting game until January. If my body doesn't start working on it's own between now and then, it looks like I will be being referred to a specialist. :( So fingers are cross and hoping that this will all work out on its own.

Round 3:

Just finished round three of hormones. :/

Welp...

Tonight starts my third month of progesterone. :( It's seriously bumming me out. That said, I guess I won't be getting pregnant before January, in the very least. We had until the end of this month to try before we take a break until January so that I'm actually able to attend the family reunion next summer that I planned. It kind of sucks...a lot, because I have so many friends that are pregnant right now...on the other hand, I guess it works out because it means I won't be pregnant during my sister's 21st birthday, and for the holidays. 

I've Been Knocked Down A Peg Or Two...

And feeling ridiculously grateful for my sweet baby girl. I have to remember that with every struggle that I am having, regardless of how painful or big it feels...someone else always has it worse. While it would absolutely break my heart if I weren't able to get pregnant again, I am blessed each day to be Sophia's momma. I love her with every beat of my heart. 

All good things must come to an end...

My heart hangs a little heavy today. Today is the first day that I am attempting to stop milk production. I am using cabbage leaves and peppermint altoids. I am extremely saddened by this, and quite frankly, a bit scared. I love my bonding time with my precious goose. 

I imagine I'll receive some criticism for this decision, but it is time. We are trying to get pregnant with baby #2 and I am having the same problems as last time, and have to take hormones that just are not good for her to be receiving through nursing. Yesterday she turned 1.5 years old. I could not be more proud/happy that I was able to breastfeed as long as I did. 

I remember being so afraid of breastfeeding before she was born. I'd heard so many horror stories about how it hurt. Then I got educated. And not only did she latch immediately, but we've had an amazing and long run. :) 

This is going to be so hard for me though. Even as I write this, she is trying to force herself into my top. :( It's so hard to have to tell her no. I'm hoping this will not remain as hard as it feels right now. It's emotionally draining. 

Progress...

Yay! This makes me happy. So I finished my first round of progesterone this past Friday, and as of today, I am on day 3 of my period! This is great! Because it means that I'm another step closer to having my body working properly. According to a few of the stupid little ovulation predictor sites, it looks like next weekend and a few days after are when they think my body will be ready, but I'll take another test in a few days and see where we're at. That would be amazing though. 

Interesting..

So now I'm just confused. I've only been on the pills for four days so far, so it wouldn't really make sense for them to be working already, but I've got some terrible cramps going on. So I'm hoping that that is a positive thing and that that means that the pills are in fact going to work rather quickly. On the other hand, if they aren't, then I'm just confused as to what this is.