Interesting..

So now I'm just confused. I've only been on the pills for four days so far, so it wouldn't really make sense for them to be working already, but I've got some terrible cramps going on. So I'm hoping that that is a positive thing and that that means that the pills are in fact going to work rather quickly. On the other hand, if they aren't, then I'm just confused as to what this is. 

One Less Worry..

Okay, well that's good. I had an appointment with my gyn today and he wrote me the script for the progesterone, so here we go again. Hopefully it will work as nicely as it did last time. Last time I was on it for 3 months and the first time I ovulated, we got pregnant. Here's to hoping for the same results!

Agh...

Seriously, it must be nice to be able to get pregnant without even trying. Without having problems and needing help. 

So despite him wanting me to wait...

I feel completely sure that I am in fact having the same problem and that I need progesterone hormones again. I don't know if I should humor him longer and keep wasting time taking these stupid tests that only make me more frustrated, or try calling again to get in and get the pills. Agh, this is so frustrating.

Let Down

Welp, as I'd figured, it was not correct. So onward we go. Unfortunately, like I said, I think my body is back to having the same issues that it did last time and that I'm just not ovulating again. I am pretty positive that I am going to need progesterone again. Meanwhile, it's really frustrating/annoying/saddening to once again see people, including family that get pregnant at the drop of a dime. It makes me jealous and somewhat angry. I'd called the Dr. last week about it, and he told me that even though it's been two months, that rather than coming in and getting the blood test just to make sure that I'm in fact not ovulating, to just do these over the counter tests. So I'm doing these stupid things over the course of a month, and if I haven't by then, I'm going and asking for the progesterone. I do NOT want to go through what I did last time, trying for a year and finding out that all of that time was wasted. And unfortunately, we're on an odd schedule right now. Basically we're only going to try for the next month or so and if we don't get pregnant then, then we are stopping trying until January, because I've been planning this family reunion for his family that is next July, and if I get pregnant anytime in between then, then I'll be too pregnant to go on the trip. :/ This whole thing is so frustrating. But it's even more frustrating when people tell me not to stress about it, and just let it happen because they don't get that this is not just a "hey, maybe this week it'll happen" but that my body physically is not able to get pregnant in its current state. 

Confusion...?

Okay, so I'm confused. It appeared that I have not been ovulating again and I've taken two tests now, well three. This is going to be TMI for most, just so you know, so if you don't want complete brutal honesty, now might be the time to stop reading. But at any rate, I took my second one like two days ago and it had shown up negative, but just a few minutes ago when I went to go pee, I noticed a little of a clear gooey discharge (common with ovulation) so I went ahead and took another test, just in case, and maybe my eyes are tricking me, but it looks like it's the same damn line, which means I AM!? So praying that it's correct. I'm going to see tonight at Walmart if any other ovulation tests are a little more easy to read just to verify. But this could very possibly mean great news! :)

Planning..

We are now going to start trying for baby #2. Unfortunately, this one may be even a little more difficult than the last because with Sophia, I was able to do my temp. checks in the mornings to find out when I'm ovulating. Unfortunately, since she comes back to bed with me in the mornings when she wakes up, I can't really do that because I'm immediately dealing with her as soon as I wake up. I've got slight concerns about whether or not I'm even ovulating again or not since last time I went almost a year of trying before we found out that I wasn't. So tonight I took an ovulation test, which was negative and will continue to do so every few days to hopefully see if I'm working right. So I guess we'll see.